Tuesday, January 26, 2010

enter the blog

It's 9:00 AM and I'm already stuck. My brain a hamster on a wheel, trying to solve a problem that is--at least for the moment--unsolvable. And God knows it's not going to be solved by running through the facts again and coming up with endless variations on the same speech. For the last five days my brain was unusually free of the hamster wheel, and those were some lovely productive days. So when the train of my thought got snagged on the treadmill this morning, I balked.

Enter the blog: the blog as therapy, the blog as confessional, the blog as a path (may I even suggest?) to redemption.

When I push that "publish post" button, a wave of relief and resolve sends me gliding along into my day: lose ends neatly tied, or at least explicitly untied, placing my minute struggles on a larger narrative trajectory. How satisfying. And I've said nothing here but to blog about blogging, which is probably the same as communicating about communication--something my husband refuses to do. I feel better, but my reader is likely irritated.

It's 9:30 and my son has found a tube of diaper rash cream and is carefully smearing it on his bedsheets. A half an hour and I've found my way out, at least for the next few minutes.

1 comment:

Jenny said...

I love this photo and this post. The hamster wheel of the mind is a great metaphor. You have helped me remember why I used to write. I hope I can find my way back to words again...it helps, I know it does.