Friday, May 19, 2006
for the present I will stay little
I did the dishes this morning, booked tickets to Colorado, noticed that my lilacs are wilting, made coffee. I am going swing dancing tonight.
I have three posts unposted, because the words get caught in wrinkles I cannot iron out. Not this morning, at least. I am considering the things Mary (my therapist) put forward last week--particularly about personal boundaries and the idea of staying in one's own skin. And I am thinking about this boy--er, man--I'm going dancing with tonight.
Staying in my own skin. This seems both obvious and simple--at least from the perspective of physical science, but I think it is a bit of a challenge for my personality type. My mind and feelings are not confined to this body (at least they don't think they are) and are always drifting off, occasionally careening away with disturbing abandon.
But this discussion of my skin gets complicated, and I can already see the wrinkles bunching in my thoughts.
For the present I will stay little, in this glowing skin.